WHEN THERE’S NOTHING TO LIVE FOR- REVISED “To those affected by this war, to the families of the soldiers, and to the soldiers themselves. May God Bless You.” -Spy41 Okay, i deleted all of the old posts. So if you read the old responses they may seem a little weird. This is the new version i wrote. “4 Marines have died today in a battle in Baghdad.” The news announcer said. “This war is crazy.” Syd said. She was sitting on the couch watching the t.v., Vaughn was sitting at the table. He looked up. “What do you mean?” he asked “Our soldiers are dying out there and some of them don’t even agree with the war.” She said “Syd, this is what they do, if they didn’t want too do it, they wouldn’t have enlisted.” Vaughn said. “Still, think about the families of these Marines, they don’t even know what happened to their sons or daughters. It’s not right, we sit here and do nothing while Americans are dying over there.” She said. She was now angry. She knew Vaughn was right but it still made her mad. He walked over and sat down next to her. “We do nothing? Syd you save the world everyday.” Vaughn said laughing. He noticed she was mad. “Look, I’m sorry, I had no idea you felt like this.” He said. He pulled her into a hug. “No, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have gotten that worked up.” She said as she pulled away to look at him. Just looking in his eyes she felt so safe. He brushed her cheek with his thumb and kissed her. “I love you.” He said softly. “I love you too.” She said looking into his eyes. “In other news, The President has sent out a report today, we were able to get our hands on a copy and the decision was made to activate the Draft. This will effect men 18 and older, and men involved within the government agency’s.” The newsman said. Syd looked at Vaughn with worried eyes. He knew what she was thinking. “It’s okay.” He said holding her again. “No,” she pulled away “It’s not okay. Vaughn, what if they draft you?” Syd said now on the verge of crying. She couldn’t go on in life without him by her side. He knew there was a possibility he would be drafted. (Next day operations center) Vaughn walked in and saw some of the agents holding yellow envelopes. Vaughn walked up to Weiss. “Hey Weiss.” Vaughn said. Weiss was still starring at the papers. “What is it?” Vaughn asked. Weiss looked up. “They drafted me man.” Weiss said. Vaughn now was certain he was also going. Sure enough a man dressed in an army uniform walked up to him. “Are you Agent Vaughn?” the man asked “Yes.” Vaughn said. The man handed him the envelope and walked away. Weiss and Vaughn both looked at each other. Vaughn opened the envelope. Inside were papers telling him he was being drafted into the Special Forces unit. Just then Sydney walked in, she stopped when she saw army personnel all around. Vaughn looked up at her. She knew he had been drafted. She started to back away. “No, no, NO!” she said. She ran out crying. Vaughn dropped the papers and ran after her. She finally collapsed in the parking lot. She was on her knees crying. Vaughn ran up to her and immediately held her. “It’s going to be okay, I promise.” He said “Why?” she asked pounding on his chest. She was sobbing. “Syd it will be okay I promise.” He said once again. “Shhhhhh.” He said as he rubbed her back. Several army men were walking past them. They knew he had been drafted. They tried not to look at them. She looked up at them. “Syd! Look at me.” He commanded. He grabbed her face and made her look at him. “You’ll be okay by yourself for a while.” He said. She went back to sobbing on his shoulder. (One week later) Vaughn and Weiss were dressed in their uniforms, bags packed and standing in front of the plane. Syd and Vaughn just starred at each other. “I love you Syd,” Vaughn said “I love you too.” She said “Please don’t leave.” She said “I have too.” She looked down at her shoes. He lifted her chin. “Now I have a reason to come home. When there is nothing to live for, I’ll think of you.” He said smiling. She kissed him again. “I’ll write you everyday I promise.” He said kissing the palm of her hand. He started to back away. He only got about ten feet before she flung herself into his arms. “Please Vaughn.” She pleaded with him. “I’m sorry, I have to go. I love you.” He said he pushed her away reluctantly. “I’ll see you when I get back.” He said as he started to walk again. “I LOVE YOU!” she shouted. He looked at her and smiled. She wanted to run up to him again, but Will was holding her back. She now cried into Will’s shoulder. “No.” she cried over and over again. They both stood there and watched the plane take off. “It’s been really hard since he’s left. Not just emotionally, but also physically. It’s so hard not seeing him everyday. Thinking that he might not come home, thinking he could be dead or injured. It’s funny actually, he used to be in my position, not knowing if I was coming home. He tried to do everything in his power to make sure my missions went as planned. He was so strong. I was so stupid, I didn’t do anything to reassure him. It was always about how this was going to affect me. A few years ago my fiancée was killed. That’s actually part of how I met Vaughn. He helped me through the tuff times, I was never easy on him. I always felt like I was such a burden on his life. I was scared. Scared that I was going to lose him like I did Danny. To lose him EVER, would make life unbearable. Vaughn is amazing in so many ways. He’s smart, funny, loving, loyal, he’s one in a million.” The counselor just sat there taking this all in. Syd began to cry. “I don’t know what I would do without him. I know it’s hard to understand but, in so many ways he’s my guardian angel.” She stopped and looked out the window that was beside her. She saw couples walking down the street. It made her cry even more. She kept thinking about the times she had with Vaughn. “Well I think this was a good start. My husband is also in the Special Forces, he wasn’t drafted, he enlisted about 5 years ago. I know it’s hard to let someone you love so much go.” The counselor said. “If you need anything at all.” She handed Sydney a card that had her address and phone number on it. “Thank you Mrs. Sanders.” Syd said as she sucked up her tears. “Please, call me Kelly.” She said smiling. Syd smiled back. “Thank you Kelly.” Syd said “I’ll see you on Thursday.” Kelly said. Syd walked out the door and went to the meeting room where Kendall, Jack and some other older agents were sitting. “Agent Bristow, we understand this is a tuff time for you. But, we have found a possible location on Sark.” Kendall said “Just Sark?” Syd asked “Yes, it appears that Sark was using Sloane to get the Rambaldi device. He planned to kill Sloane but it went wrong.” Kendall said “What about Derevko?” Syd asked “Sark is apparently still working for her, so that means Sloane is left in the dust, by himself.” Jack interrupted. “Sark has been seen entering and leaving a warehouse in Istanbul a few days ago. We need you to go in and see what he is up to.” Kendall said, “You leave in 3 hours.” Everyone packed up and left. (Vaughn’s POV) “Vaughn get Sanders in here pronto.” The general said. Vaughn ran to the tent that was on the other side of the base and burst in looking for the man he was supposed to get. “Hey, where is Sanders?” Vaughn asked another soldier. The man pointed to the table in the corner. Vaughn ran up to him. “The general needs to see you pronto.” Vaughn said “Okay, lets go.” Sanders picked up his gun and ran out of the tent. Vaughn was in a group of 15 Special Forces operatives. Most of them had been drafted and had come from the CIA or the FBI, others enlisted. It has been 1 week since they arrived so they all became pretty close. They both arrived in the tent. “What is it sir?” Sanders asked “We got new Intel. A man named Jared Wood, a former KGB agent, has been spotted in southern Kuwait. He was seen talking to a known terrorist, he has been exchanging files and Intel to him. For world safety we need to know what they are exchanging. This is stealth mission, we just need to know what they have that we don’t know about. You two and Weiss will leave in an hour. Be ready.” The general walked out of the tent and into another. There were sandstorms coming in form the west and it would most likely complicate the mission. Sanders and Vaughn walked back to their tent and began to put on the rest of their gear. Weiss came in. “So this guy walks into a bar…” “Shut up!” Vaughn and Sanders said at the same time. “Hey, I’m only trying to lighten the mood.” Weiss said “Yeah, well not before a mission.” Vaughn said “Man tuff crowd.” Weiss said. Vaughn reached for his black helmet, but paused when he saw the picture of him and Syd standing in front of the zoo. He smiled. “Whatca lookin’ at?” Sanders asked peeking over Vaughn’s shoulder. “Oh, that’s Vaughn’s honey.” Weiss said “O really, I have a wife of my own.” Sanders said “Really?” Vaughn said “Yeah, here.” Sanders showed Vaughn a picture of a short blonde woman. Vaughn handed it back to him. “She’s my good luck charm.” Sanders said as he put the picture in his breast pocket, close to his heart. “Same with Sydney.” Vaughn said “Oh, this is really touching but you know we have to get going. Remember, Top Secret mission and all.” Weiss said “Yeah, Yeah.” Vaughn said as he picked up his backpack. They all headed to the helicopter that was supposed to drop them off at their insertion point. (Sydney’s POV) She opened the hatch on the rooftop and jumped onto a beam supporting the ceiling. She watched as two men walked into a room and sat down at a table. Minutes later Sark walked in and also sat down. “I take it you have considered my deal?” Sark said “Yes, I will do what you ask, but only if you give me the codes.” The man said. Sark gave him a code written on paper. Syd took a picture of it. The man checked the code and then proceeded to do business. “So what would you like me to do?” the man asked Sark. Sark handed him an envelope. “I want you to kill Arvin Sloane.” Sark said “Arvin Sloane? The man that deceived the alliance?” the man said questionably “Yes, is there a problem?” Sark asked “No, no problem. How soon?” he asked “As soon as possible.” Sark said. Just then Sark’s phone rang. “Sark here. Yes, okay.” He hung up. “I’ll wait to hear from you.” With that Sark got up and walked out of the room. Syd kept wondering what the codes were for. She knew she could find out, but then Sloane would live. (Vaughn’s POV) They flew across the hot desert. Visibility was getting very bad in the chopper. In order to get to the insertion point they would have to go over a city that was now being fought for, which was of course dangerous. They were approaching the city when the unimaginable happened. (Syd’s POV) Syd got down from the beam and ran to catch up with the man that had the codes. When she finally did she took out the guard and then threw the other man against the wall twisting his arm behind his back. “What are those codes for?” She demanded “I don’t know what you are talking about.” He said. She pulled his arm harder “Ah, okay, okay. They are for some weapon, the code makes it self destruct.” He said “Where is the weapon located?” she asked “Some where in Iraq. It’s like a nuclear weapon it would wipe out the whole country.” he said. Syd’s face immediately became worried. She knocked him out and took the code. “Base Camp this is Eagle 1, we’ve been hit we’re going down.” The pilot said. Weiss, Vaughn and Sanders just looked at each other. You could see the fear in their eyes. “There are 3 parachutes in the back, put em’ on and get out of here.” The pilot demanded. All three put them on. “Come on!” Vaughn said trying to get the pilot to jump with him. “No, someone has to try and fly this thing, if I let go we’ll all die.” The pilot said, “Go I’ll be fine.” Vaughn had to jump, he leaped out of the chopper and landed in a tree. Weiss and Sanders landed safely on the ground. The chopper burst into flames before it even hit the ground. The pilot had no chance. Vaughn couldn’t help but blame himself, he could have saved the pilot. “Hey man you okay?” Weiss called from below. “Yeah.” Vaughn unhooked himself from the parachute and fell atleast 10 feet to the ground. Sanders and Weiss helped him up. “Where are we?” Vaughn asked “Baghdad.” Sanders said “You mean,” “Yeah, we are in the middle of the fight.” Sanders said “ there should be a camp not to far from here. But we might encounter some resistance.” Sanders said “Well, lets go before anyone knows we are here.” Weiss said. They then heard some firing off in the distance. “Great, you had to jinx us huh Weiss?” Vaughn said “Shut up, and lets go.” Sanders said now leading the group. Vaughn and Weiss didn’t argue. (Syd POV) She arrived back at the operations center and immediately went to see Kendall. “Agent Bristow.” Kendall said “I got a code that Sark gave to a man. It is used to self-destruct a bomb in Iraq. Which means it would kill all of our soldiers.” Syd said “I’ll get a team right on it.” Kendall said “Anything else?” “Did you hear from Vaughn?” she asked “No.” he said bluntly. She walked out and went back home. She almost ran to the mailbox hopping to find a letter from Vaughn. Sure enough there was one waiting for her. She took the mail and ran inside. She threw the rest of it on the glass table, walked into her room and closed the door. She opened it and began to read it. Syd, It’s crazy over here. Don’t worry I’m not in the fighting. We go on missions like we did when we were back home. The guys are great here, we are like brothers, we look out for eachother. I have been thinking about you day and night, just wishing I could hold you. Weiss is good, he’s the funny guy out of the group. So how are things over there? I hope Kendall isn’t giving you a hard time, I guess I’ll just have to kick his ass when I get home. There are rumors that we might be done here soon. We go on missions almost every night and we are very close to making Iraq a free country. It is so dry here, it’s lonely even though I have Weiss to talk too. I wish I were there with you. I love you and I miss you. I promise I will come back too you soon. Love, Vaughn P.S.- Here is a picture of Weiss and me at base camp. She closed the letter and looked at the picture. Vaughn looked good, but he was so burnt form the sun. She couldn’t put the picture down. She hadn’t seen Vaughn in over a week and it was killing her. (Vaughn POV) They walked for what seemed to be days. The loud firing of the guns was getting louder. A few hours later they reached a group of marines that were fighting with some Iraqi army. They ran over and started to shoot, trying to help the pinned marines. “Who are you?” one of them asked “We are Special Forces, our chopper crashed.” Sanders said. They all kept firing. “Well thank God you came we need all the men we can get.” He said They kept firing until all of the men were either dead, injured, or had surrendered. They all moved forward. Weiss, Sanders and Vaughn stuck together. Suddenly there were stray bullets whizzing by them. They all took cover except Sanders. He was hit bad, right in the chest. Vaughn dragged him over to cover. “Oh my God, you are going to be alright.” Vaughn said as he covered Sanders wound. “Vau…Vaughn...its…its too late.” Sanders managed to get out. “No I’m not going to let you die!” Vaughn said “Tell…tell…Kelly and Jake that I…love them. Promise me.” Sanders said Vaughn shook his head. “I promise.” Vaughn was now holding his hand trying to make Sanders feel comfortable before leaving. Sanders head fell back. Vaughn took Sanders and carried him over his shoulder. “Is he?” Weiss couldn’t finish “Yes.” Vaughn said “He’s going to slow us down.” Weiss said “He deserves a proper burial.” Vaughn said and he kept moving. Later that night Vaughn Weiss and another Marine sat around a fire. “I’m sorry about you’re friend.” He said “He was a good man, he didn’t deserve to die.” Vaughn said “His body has been sent back to the states.” The marine said “He’ll be given a proper burial.” Just then a chopper landed it was their ride back to base camp. (Base Camp) “Sanders was a good man, it hurts me to lose him.” The general said “Good news you two, My superiors say that we almost have the country, which means you can go home in a few months, since your job is not clean up and seeing you are CIA they need you back when your done.” “So now your mission is what you were supposed to do yesterday. Find out what Intel you can and come home. Dismissed.” The general said Vaughn and Weiss arrived at the target and snuck into the building. They hid behind some crates that were stacked in the corner. “So is the bomb ready?” one man asked “Yes.” The other said “What about the code?” the first one asked “As far as I know everything went as planned.” He said. Just then the man asking about the bomb got a phone call. “Yes.” He answered “Someone stole the codes, it must be a set up.” The mans boss said. “Okay.” The man said and he hung up. The man walked over to his guard and whispered something in his ear. The man turned around and started firing. Soon the whole building was engulfed in a gunfight. Vaughn and Weiss decided they got what they came for and they left before the fight could get any worse. They arrived back at basecamp and gave the general the Intel. “I’m glad to have you back, good work.” (Syd’s POV) Sydney was still sitting on the bed staring at the picture. Then the doorbell rang. She walked over and opened it. Standing in front of her were two army personal holding a yellow folder. She had tears in her eyes now. “Can I help you?” she asked “Yes, can you give this to Mrs. Sanders.” The man handed her a folder “She isn’t home at the moment.” “Is that it?” Syd asked “Yes, I’m sorry if we scared you. Have a nice day.” The men said and the walked back to the military car that was sitting outside. She closed the door, she was so relieved that Vaughn was okay. She knew what was in the folder. Sydney drove over to Kelly’s house about 2 hours later. She got out of her car and went to the door. Kelly answered and let Sydney inside. “So what can I do for you?” Kelly asked. Sydney had sadness in her eyes. Kelly looked down and saw the folder. “Oh my gosh,” Kelly said. “I know, I’m so….” “I’m so sorry.” Kelly said. “They came to your door and told you?” Kelly asked. “Actually…” “Sydney I’m so sorry, this must be hard for you.” Kelly said. Sydney had to get it out. “Actually, it’s for you.” Syd finally said. Kelly starred at her. Sydney finally handed it to Kelly. She took it and sat down on the couch. She opened the envelope to find two dog tags and a letter. She opened it and started to cry. “This cant be happening.” Kelly said in a whisper. “I’m so sorry.” Syd said. “Is there anyone I can call for you?” Syd asked. “No, He said he was going to be careful.” Kelly said. “He was I’m sure. I’ll write Vaughn and find out what happened I promise.” Syd said. “Thank you.” Kelly said. “I should go.” Syd said. She let herself out. She went back home and took a shower then she wrote Vaughn a letter.