Dear Sydney,
I sit at the edge of the bed at a loss wondering whether I should you wake you or not. A small smile is on your face, I am only imagining your dreams for once may now be pleasant. Although I feel like a bit of a cad leaving you this way, it would be selfish of me to wake you from your greatly needed slumber. I will write you this letter instead.
Today, you asked me why I never considered giving you the opportunity to work for Sloane again. Here is my answer – you have a great life Sydney. No life is without its up’s and down’s, but there is still reason for you to stay where you are Your father loves you, your colleagues appreciate you, your work is honorable – coming back to work with Sloane as a double agent again would cause you to lose all of that. Something if I remember correctly, you longed for most of your time at SD-6.
In my recruitment, they gave me the following words to live by: “It is only after you lose everything that you are free to do anything**” I started this task with nothing, that thought in mind keeping me going. Now I realize when I lose everything that this lie is built upon, I will be free from everything it holds me to. I will have one more thing that can never be taken from me besides the memory of our brief time together.
So you see Sydney, you cannot go back to the life of a double agent. The things you still have in this world would be foolish to throw away. Tomorrow morning, my handler will drive you to the airport and you will return home. Never doubt the path you have chosen Sydney, we are all on our own for many reasons. In time, I am sure you will see why you are on yours.
~JL