Bebri...i know what you mean...and i guess i am selfish, but whatever...i'll admit it, but i just feel this way...maybe it'll change, but i doubt it...i'm happiest when they're not around, and i doubt i'll stay in cali after school. maybe seeing them only maybe 3 times a year would be good for me..and them too.
anyways, i guess i am selfish, and you can think whatever of me you want, but i really dont care what anyone thinks of me...argh! this is reminding me of this girl on my basketball team in pe. one day i was feeling sick and my stomach really hurt and i was getting...erm...something female-ish that comes once a month...understand? so i wasnt feeling my best and i barelyplayed basketball, and i told her i really didnt feel weel with that and my allergies acting up! and then the next day i ask her, so are we playing? and she just sneers at me saying, dont you feel sick? and i say no...why would i? and she goes, well, you were sick yesterday, werent you? anyways, you dont have to play...so anyways, i got kinda pissed off since she thought i was lying and i just said to her, do you think i was making it up? do you think i'd make something up to get out of playing? Because if you do, just say so. If i really wanted to get out of playing, I wouldn't lie. I'd say, I'm lazy and i dont want to play. So, tell me, did you think i was lying about feeling sick yesterday? Anyways, no one on the team really likes her....