I Remember
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Can't Vaughn see the tension hes a bit slow.
And they hugged ...STop making me cry tear tear...sigh.
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And they hugged ...STop making me cry tear tear...sigh.
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ok janet i don't know what to say except for two things:
you are SOO evil
and that this fic has made me cry more than i have in ages
even when i watched a walk to remember like 3 times in a week
never have i cried this much
ok shelby! please add me to the addict list, whatever the next number is is fine! oh and please pm me with my number
sorry but i like don't come on much anymore *glares at school*
ok that review sucked
but like.. there's nothing to say that won't make me cry again
but you don't know how much i love this!
luv juju
you are SOO evil
and that this fic has made me cry more than i have in ages
even when i watched a walk to remember like 3 times in a week
never have i cried this much
ok shelby! please add me to the addict list, whatever the next number is is fine! oh and please pm me with my number
sorry but i like don't come on much anymore *glares at school*
ok that review sucked
but like.. there's nothing to say that won't make me cry again
but you don't know how much i love this!
luv juju
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Excellent story. Poor Syd. Be sure to pm me when you update.
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Do you realise there have been 4 whole pages of reviews since the last chapter- that you only posted yesterday?
That's crazy, you see how much we love this
Even though it's so sad
That hug.... and his little girl and Syd with his stuff and the watch and eric and the basket ball and...
That's crazy, you see how much we love this
Even though it's so sad
That hug.... and his little girl and Syd with his stuff and the watch and eric and the basket ball and...
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Ohhh when you say later you mean... come on I need spacifics...
SkyGirl5
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Chapter 8
~Why Syd?~
A few days later Sydney took Michelle over to Nadia’s so she and Michael could play.
“How are you holding up?” Nadia asked.
“Uh you know.... not at all.” Sydney sighed.
“You hugged him.” Nadia said. Sydney looked at her in surprise. “Eric saw.”
“Oh yeah...”
“How’d that go?”
“It was terrible... wonderful but terrible. When I saw him standing there behind Michelle... behind his daughter.... I thought I was going to die. I mean I actually thought my heart would just stop beating. I knew that if I didn’t touch him I would pass out. I mean hugging him hurt like you wouldn’t believe but... I had to. I just had to feel him in my arms again to make sure it was real...”
“Syd why are you doing this?” Nadia asked.
“Doing what?”
“Pushing him away. Syd just tell him...”
“NO!” Sydney screamed. “Nadia I can’t”
“Why not?”
“What would I say? By the way I’m your fiancé and this is your daughter?”
“Yes”
“He’d freak.”
“No Sydney he’d be with you.”
“For the wrong reasons – because he felt like he had to”
“Sydney....” Nadia said.
“NO! He can’t its not fair.” Sydney sighed.
“He can’t or you can’t?” Nadia asked.
“I can’t...” Sydney sighed. “I can’t not be with him Nadia. There is something in me that just craves him. If he’s not around at all then it’s ok but if he’s standing right there.... I just can’t. I learned that. When he was with ... her... I couldn’t deal; I can’t go through that again.”
“But what if you being together brings back his memory? I mean that’s a possibility....” Nadia sighed.
“Yeah but... I just can’t” Sydney sighed.
Chapter 9
~It's What We Do~
For the next month and a half Sydney successfully avoided Vaughn. She didn’t see him once. Every time she suspected that he might be visiting next door she refused to even go near a window or a door. She did however think about him every second of every day.
She had completely confused herself with all her emotions to the point where she had just shut down entirely and compartmentalized them all like she was taught to when she was in the CIA. Her heart ached for Vaughn just like it always had only now it was worse because she was the one keeping herself from him. But she couldn’t bring herself to believe he was there. Even if he knew the truth about them, about Michelle, she thought that maybe he would choose not to be with them and to live another life with someone else. That would kill her even more than not knowing at all. She tried desperately to forget him and pretend that he was still dead. The truth was Vaughn was dead still. Even though the physical person existed that person had no memory of being Vaughn and therefore Vaughn was still gone and there was little hope of him ever returning.
~*~
At Thanksgiving she was to go over to Eric and Nadia’s. When she arrived she found Nadia busy in the kitchen.
“Nadia I need to help you” Sydney said.
“No I’m good.”
“Nadia you’re six months pregnant” Sydney laughed. Nadia just shrugged.
“Is anyone here?” Jack called from the doorway.
“In here Dad” Nadia called.
“Hey Dad” Sydney smiled.
“Hello girls. Is Michael here yet?” Jack asked. Nadia glared at him. Sydney gasped.
“By Michael he damn well better mean your son.” Sydney said to Nadia.
“Uh...” Nadia began. “It was Eric’s idea.”
“ERIC!” Sydney screamed.
“What?!” He asked indignantly.
“YOU INVITED VAUGHN?!”
“Uh...”
“How could you... I have to leave...” Sydney said as she headed for the door.
“Wait, wait, wait” Eric said as he caught her arm. “Look I had to invite him because remember he has no memory and therefore no friends. Syd you are going to have to deal with this.”
“I can’t...”
“You can. Please try.”
“How are you dealing with it Eric?” Sydney screamed.
“What are you talking about?” Eric asked.
“I mean what are you doing? Just acting like nothing ever change.”
“No Syd I’m being his friend which is something you should be doing.” Eric said.
“I can’t do that.” She sighed.
“Why the hell not?” Eric shouted. “Syd by doing this you are only punishing yourself and him. Is that what you want to do? Punish him for coming back?”
“No...” She sighed.
“Then stay for dinner – that’s all I ask.”
“Ok...” Sydney said.
“Hi” Vaughn said as he walked in.
“Hey” Nadia smiled. “Go on and make yourself comfortable. Dinner will be ready soon”
“Thanks. Oh hi Mr. Bristow” Michael smiled as he extended his hand.
“It’s Jack” Jack said as he shook his hand.
Vaughn then went in and found Sydney sitting on the floor with her daughter.
“Hi” He said.
“Hi” She mumbled without looking up.
Michelle got up and walked over to him. “Hi” She smiled.
“Hey Michelle” Michael said as he bent down.
“Come play.” She smiled.
“Okay.” He said. He sat down on the floor next to here where she was playing with Lego’s. Sydney sat back and watched them play. It broke her heart because Vaughn was getting along so well with his daughter. She always knew he would make a spectacular father.
“She’s great” Michael said a little later when he sat up on the couch next to Sydney.
“Thanks...” Sydney said.
“She’s beautiful; she looks just like you.”
“Yeah but she has her father’s eyes.” Sydney smiled.
The rest of the family watched them closely knowing that this little arrangement had disaster potential written all over it.
“Uh ok guys dinner!” Nadia said.
After she had had a glass of wine Sydney was feeling much more sociable. By dessert (and three glasses of wine later) she hardly even remembered that Vaughn hadn’t been around for 4 years.
“... yeah and then Lauren freaked out...” Eric laughed.
“Who’s Lauren?” Vaughn asked.
Everyone looked around the table in silence. No one knew what to say or how to say it.
“She was your wife” Sydney said finally. Everyone avoided eye contact with Sydney and Vaughn.
“Wife? I’m married?”
“No” Eric told him.
“I’m divorced?”
“Uh more like widowed.” Eric said.
“She died?”
“Not exactly.”
“You know you could just tell me and that would be easier...” Vaughn groaned.
“She was murdered by you.” Sydney said harshly.
“WHAT?” Michael gasped.
“Vaughn we’re spies... it’s what we do.” Sydney said.
“I’m sorry do you have a problem with me?” Vaughn asked.
“Me?” Sydney asked.
“Yes you. You’ve been cold to me ever since... well I got here.”
“Whatever.” She sighed.
“OK hold it.” Jack said. “Let us explain... your ex – Lauren. She was a spy a bad one... she was a mole in the US government and she tried to kill Sydney but you killed her to protect Sydney. Lauren was a bad person. That’s all you need to know.”
Everyone was silent again.
“Excuse me.” Sydney said as she ran out of the house.
“Oh... but why would I marry her if...” Vaughn began.
“Don’t even go there – trust me you’re better off no knowing” Eric told him.
“What about Sydney?” Vaughn asked.
“What about her?”
“Well her attitude toward me it’s so... I mean did we...” Vaughn let his voice drift off.
“Again... I’m really just not the right person to explain that to you.” Eric said.
“Oh...”
“Unfortunately only she can do that – and it’s clear she’s not ready.”
~*~
Later Jack brought Michelle back to her house.
“Sorry about that I just....” Sydney sighed.
“It’s ok.” Jack said.
“I just don’t think I can do that again...”
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~Why Syd?~
A few days later Sydney took Michelle over to Nadia’s so she and Michael could play.
“How are you holding up?” Nadia asked.
“Uh you know.... not at all.” Sydney sighed.
“You hugged him.” Nadia said. Sydney looked at her in surprise. “Eric saw.”
“Oh yeah...”
“How’d that go?”
“It was terrible... wonderful but terrible. When I saw him standing there behind Michelle... behind his daughter.... I thought I was going to die. I mean I actually thought my heart would just stop beating. I knew that if I didn’t touch him I would pass out. I mean hugging him hurt like you wouldn’t believe but... I had to. I just had to feel him in my arms again to make sure it was real...”
“Syd why are you doing this?” Nadia asked.
“Doing what?”
“Pushing him away. Syd just tell him...”
“NO!” Sydney screamed. “Nadia I can’t”
“Why not?”
“What would I say? By the way I’m your fiancé and this is your daughter?”
“Yes”
“He’d freak.”
“No Sydney he’d be with you.”
“For the wrong reasons – because he felt like he had to”
“Sydney....” Nadia said.
“NO! He can’t its not fair.” Sydney sighed.
“He can’t or you can’t?” Nadia asked.
“I can’t...” Sydney sighed. “I can’t not be with him Nadia. There is something in me that just craves him. If he’s not around at all then it’s ok but if he’s standing right there.... I just can’t. I learned that. When he was with ... her... I couldn’t deal; I can’t go through that again.”
“But what if you being together brings back his memory? I mean that’s a possibility....” Nadia sighed.
“Yeah but... I just can’t” Sydney sighed.
Chapter 9
~It's What We Do~
For the next month and a half Sydney successfully avoided Vaughn. She didn’t see him once. Every time she suspected that he might be visiting next door she refused to even go near a window or a door. She did however think about him every second of every day.
She had completely confused herself with all her emotions to the point where she had just shut down entirely and compartmentalized them all like she was taught to when she was in the CIA. Her heart ached for Vaughn just like it always had only now it was worse because she was the one keeping herself from him. But she couldn’t bring herself to believe he was there. Even if he knew the truth about them, about Michelle, she thought that maybe he would choose not to be with them and to live another life with someone else. That would kill her even more than not knowing at all. She tried desperately to forget him and pretend that he was still dead. The truth was Vaughn was dead still. Even though the physical person existed that person had no memory of being Vaughn and therefore Vaughn was still gone and there was little hope of him ever returning.
~*~
At Thanksgiving she was to go over to Eric and Nadia’s. When she arrived she found Nadia busy in the kitchen.
“Nadia I need to help you” Sydney said.
“No I’m good.”
“Nadia you’re six months pregnant” Sydney laughed. Nadia just shrugged.
“Is anyone here?” Jack called from the doorway.
“In here Dad” Nadia called.
“Hey Dad” Sydney smiled.
“Hello girls. Is Michael here yet?” Jack asked. Nadia glared at him. Sydney gasped.
“By Michael he damn well better mean your son.” Sydney said to Nadia.
“Uh...” Nadia began. “It was Eric’s idea.”
“ERIC!” Sydney screamed.
“What?!” He asked indignantly.
“YOU INVITED VAUGHN?!”
“Uh...”
“How could you... I have to leave...” Sydney said as she headed for the door.
“Wait, wait, wait” Eric said as he caught her arm. “Look I had to invite him because remember he has no memory and therefore no friends. Syd you are going to have to deal with this.”
“I can’t...”
“You can. Please try.”
“How are you dealing with it Eric?” Sydney screamed.
“What are you talking about?” Eric asked.
“I mean what are you doing? Just acting like nothing ever change.”
“No Syd I’m being his friend which is something you should be doing.” Eric said.
“I can’t do that.” She sighed.
“Why the hell not?” Eric shouted. “Syd by doing this you are only punishing yourself and him. Is that what you want to do? Punish him for coming back?”
“No...” She sighed.
“Then stay for dinner – that’s all I ask.”
“Ok...” Sydney said.
“Hi” Vaughn said as he walked in.
“Hey” Nadia smiled. “Go on and make yourself comfortable. Dinner will be ready soon”
“Thanks. Oh hi Mr. Bristow” Michael smiled as he extended his hand.
“It’s Jack” Jack said as he shook his hand.
Vaughn then went in and found Sydney sitting on the floor with her daughter.
“Hi” He said.
“Hi” She mumbled without looking up.
Michelle got up and walked over to him. “Hi” She smiled.
“Hey Michelle” Michael said as he bent down.
“Come play.” She smiled.
“Okay.” He said. He sat down on the floor next to here where she was playing with Lego’s. Sydney sat back and watched them play. It broke her heart because Vaughn was getting along so well with his daughter. She always knew he would make a spectacular father.
“She’s great” Michael said a little later when he sat up on the couch next to Sydney.
“Thanks...” Sydney said.
“She’s beautiful; she looks just like you.”
“Yeah but she has her father’s eyes.” Sydney smiled.
The rest of the family watched them closely knowing that this little arrangement had disaster potential written all over it.
“Uh ok guys dinner!” Nadia said.
After she had had a glass of wine Sydney was feeling much more sociable. By dessert (and three glasses of wine later) she hardly even remembered that Vaughn hadn’t been around for 4 years.
“... yeah and then Lauren freaked out...” Eric laughed.
“Who’s Lauren?” Vaughn asked.
Everyone looked around the table in silence. No one knew what to say or how to say it.
“She was your wife” Sydney said finally. Everyone avoided eye contact with Sydney and Vaughn.
“Wife? I’m married?”
“No” Eric told him.
“I’m divorced?”
“Uh more like widowed.” Eric said.
“She died?”
“Not exactly.”
“You know you could just tell me and that would be easier...” Vaughn groaned.
“She was murdered by you.” Sydney said harshly.
“WHAT?” Michael gasped.
“Vaughn we’re spies... it’s what we do.” Sydney said.
“I’m sorry do you have a problem with me?” Vaughn asked.
“Me?” Sydney asked.
“Yes you. You’ve been cold to me ever since... well I got here.”
“Whatever.” She sighed.
“OK hold it.” Jack said. “Let us explain... your ex – Lauren. She was a spy a bad one... she was a mole in the US government and she tried to kill Sydney but you killed her to protect Sydney. Lauren was a bad person. That’s all you need to know.”
Everyone was silent again.
“Excuse me.” Sydney said as she ran out of the house.
“Oh... but why would I marry her if...” Vaughn began.
“Don’t even go there – trust me you’re better off no knowing” Eric told him.
“What about Sydney?” Vaughn asked.
“What about her?”
“Well her attitude toward me it’s so... I mean did we...” Vaughn let his voice drift off.
“Again... I’m really just not the right person to explain that to you.” Eric said.
“Oh...”
“Unfortunately only she can do that – and it’s clear she’s not ready.”
~*~
Later Jack brought Michelle back to her house.
“Sorry about that I just....” Sydney sighed.
“It’s ok.” Jack said.
“I just don’t think I can do that again...”
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woo first and i beat the Pm and I wasn't stalking...
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im second? i dont have time to read lol ill bbl to read it
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Great chapters! Thanks for the pm
:sadangel: <--that's my only reaction...that sums up everything.
Thanx for the PM and update.
Riley xoxo
Thanx for the PM and update.
Riley xoxo
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I own Vaughn's holster
Aww, you can't leave us there!!!
I feel bad for Vaughn. The poor guy has no recollection of what the hell happened to him, but he obviously knows something is up with Syd. But, I feel bad for Syd too cause she has all these feelings for him and he doesn't remember. It's a mess.
I'm patiently waiting the happy ending.
Update soon! You're killing me! lol. :lol:
I feel bad for Vaughn. The poor guy has no recollection of what the hell happened to him, but he obviously knows something is up with Syd. But, I feel bad for Syd too cause she has all these feelings for him and he doesn't remember. It's a mess.
I'm patiently waiting the happy ending.
Update soon! You're killing me! lol. :lol:
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So fantastic! Can't wait till Vaughn finds out the truth, and hopefully soon he'll get his memory back and everything should be good and happy again.
It's also so nice to see Jack actuallu being nice and friendly, and everyone just seems so content with their lives. it's nice to see that occasionally.
Thanks for the PM, it's fantastically fantastic.
It's also so nice to see Jack actuallu being nice and friendly, and everyone just seems so content with their lives. it's nice to see that occasionally.
Thanks for the PM, it's fantastically fantastic.
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Oh man. I feel so bad for Vaughn. He's obviously attracted to Syd feels their connection yet he can't figure her out.
Can't wait for the next update!
Jules
Can't wait for the next update!
Jules