Kuzzle
Cadet
I've been under so much stress in the last month, that I've actually developed a facial tic,(My left eye flutters when stressed) and the last real face-to-face conversation I've had with anyone outside of my own family was in October, not counting business transactions.
My mom kicked out her drunkard of a boyfriend, so now I'm having to get up 3-4 times a night to get stuff for my baby brother, because my mom can't. She's got a bad back,(she broke it a few years back) and she just had a neuroma removed from her foot, so she can't walk around on it much. On top of that, I'm the one who's got to do all the lifting, all the running around, all the stuff that involves bending... *sigh* My grandma's trying to help, but she's 65 years old, so while she can help clean up, it's just... Bah.
On top of that, I'm taking care of two dogs, and I don't get to do anything for me. Why? Because all I want to do is hang out with friends, and I don't have any. Why? Because everyone seems to think I hate everyone. I don't; I hate humanity. There's a big difference. Well, that and because I can never seem to strike up small talk. I find it annoying when someone I don't know starts talking to me, and I figure "I wouldn't like it, so I'm not going to do it to them.", so even when I get the chance to talk to people, I instinctively pass on it. I've been trying to work on that, but as of yet, I've been unsuccessful.
What's this mean? It means I wish I drank. :-L
My mom kicked out her drunkard of a boyfriend, so now I'm having to get up 3-4 times a night to get stuff for my baby brother, because my mom can't. She's got a bad back,(she broke it a few years back) and she just had a neuroma removed from her foot, so she can't walk around on it much. On top of that, I'm the one who's got to do all the lifting, all the running around, all the stuff that involves bending... *sigh* My grandma's trying to help, but she's 65 years old, so while she can help clean up, it's just... Bah.
On top of that, I'm taking care of two dogs, and I don't get to do anything for me. Why? Because all I want to do is hang out with friends, and I don't have any. Why? Because everyone seems to think I hate everyone. I don't; I hate humanity. There's a big difference. Well, that and because I can never seem to strike up small talk. I find it annoying when someone I don't know starts talking to me, and I figure "I wouldn't like it, so I'm not going to do it to them.", so even when I get the chance to talk to people, I instinctively pass on it. I've been trying to work on that, but as of yet, I've been unsuccessful.
What's this mean? It means I wish I drank. :-L