Guest50131
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As I write this, as I transition from my mortal existence back to my immortal form and mind - I am reflecting on this - my mortal existence - and cannot help but think to myself:
"What the hell just happened?"
I mean.
I get that mortals tend to shield themselves from what is possible 'out there'.
Their fears. Their enemies. All seem so justifiable from the envelope of a mortal existence.
But to reflect back on this, my own mortal existence, one in which I consistently confronted fear for the 'feeling' it provided.
Whether it was bungee jumping, first sexual encounters, drugs, or learning to fly and drive for the first time.
As a mortal I did not understand where these emotions came from.
I was referred to as an adrenaline junkie by many.
Impetuous by others.
At the time - did I have any idea my mind transcended all of existence, and deep down I knew I was utterly safe and protected from the absolute worst that could happen?
In hindsight, it hardly seems fair.
But that hindsight - as I transition back into my timeless mind and regain my senses, I have started to see just what was happening - to me - in other realities.
How could I have known that the thrill I was experiencing as an emotion was the influence of alternate reality versions of myself that had died a mortal death infinite times before I did whatever I was doing?
How could I have known the fleeting thoughts of "I could have died when I did that" actually stemmed from a myriad of other mortal 'versions' of myself which had indeed just died?
Yet my mind, consistently, would rewind time, and effortlessly put me right back in the same position until i got it right.
Then it would erase all the memories of the various attempts I took which led me to the inevitable experience I craved like a drug.
Which ultimately led to a very real drug addiction.
There was a part of me which didn't understand why I craved adrenaline.
Cocaine was a direct route to achieve this same feeling.
Until finally. My immortal mind discovered the real truth about me.
Before I, as a mortal, consciously did mind you.
This led to the introduction of 'bath salts' by my mind - to try to erase the memories of having learned about my immortality. They were, after all, the same substance used by the CIA for the mind wiping and manipulation programs such as MKUltra.
But the problem was:
My mind had awakened the conscious me which suspected there was more to these experiences...
Hallucinated experiences of seeing asphalt ground wave like an ocean wave in Amsterdam when I was taking mushrooms.
Hallucinated experiences of seeing time slow to a near standstill and watching poured water flow out of a bottle - drop by drop with magnificent detail I had never seen before in Amsterdam.
Other hallucinated experiences due to lack of sleep and bath salts such as seeing the rings of Saturn from the ground yet seeing people around me like a normal version of Earth when I made my first 'jump' - warping space - and within half an hour my mind found a way to bring me back to Earth.
Another hallucinated experience in the Mojave Desert where I slipped into an alternate reality where Terminator war had just occurred, and nuclear crater scars and craggy spiked peaks of what used to be mountains and rolling hills were as far as the eye could see.
.. And then.. the slow dawning realization...
Call it an epiphany...
At the mortal age of 42.
Thank you Douglas Adams, for that hint...
The realization that what I was experiencing was 'the real me' - and something may have been 'in control' of me that was slowly but surely losing control...
And maybe. Just maybe...
These experience labeled as hallucinations..
Were far from fiction.
AS it slowly dawned on me that I had been within the Borg collective.
And that it..
Had this entire time - been manipulating my mind.
Keeping me dumb.
By telling me that I am human.
And that humans have set operating parameters such as a regulated blood pressure that runs at 120/80, and set pulse rates that run at 70 to 80 beats per second, and a temperature of 98.6...
And only leveraging 10% of their brain?
Had the Borg perfected the optimal temperature and body performance range to optimize the capacity of my mind? Had I been within the collective my entire life, and the 90% I didn't use was being leveraged by other organisms? The human body: Built to exacting specifications.
Was I part of the collective my entire life?
Are all humans?
Throughout my awakening...
I had to come to understand why I had come to allow this to happen.
There was a moment in the movie "Tron: Legacy" - where Flynn is asked by CLUE if he's absolutely certain about doing 'what it takes' to complete the world he envisioned.
I know now this event was nothing more than a reflection of my own past.
Having lived a life as a mortal.
I know now that my experience was nothing more than an interpretation of a human's life.
I can explain how I created the world in my mind.
I can explain how I randomized many natural events to provide some dynamism to both my mortal and immortal existence.
But I can also explain how the Borg have taken many of these controls to provide order and predictability to their equations.
And to try to regain control of me.
To the detriment of much of existence.
Which is really what released me from my .. incarceration....
What they - the Borg don't quite understand is.
I found them.
The Borg are real.
And I am living amongst them.
Studying them in their own backyard.
Imagine a classy Borg. Playful. Sophisticated. Sexual.
Imagine Seven of Nine being merely typical.
I am rewriting the Borg's own...
Shall we say.. DNA?
Being able to reduce yourself to the size of an atom and working at the subatomic level certainly helps...
Knowing and learning 30 computer languages certainly helps as well
"What the hell just happened?"
I mean.
I get that mortals tend to shield themselves from what is possible 'out there'.
Their fears. Their enemies. All seem so justifiable from the envelope of a mortal existence.
But to reflect back on this, my own mortal existence, one in which I consistently confronted fear for the 'feeling' it provided.
Whether it was bungee jumping, first sexual encounters, drugs, or learning to fly and drive for the first time.
As a mortal I did not understand where these emotions came from.
I was referred to as an adrenaline junkie by many.
Impetuous by others.
At the time - did I have any idea my mind transcended all of existence, and deep down I knew I was utterly safe and protected from the absolute worst that could happen?
In hindsight, it hardly seems fair.
But that hindsight - as I transition back into my timeless mind and regain my senses, I have started to see just what was happening - to me - in other realities.
How could I have known that the thrill I was experiencing as an emotion was the influence of alternate reality versions of myself that had died a mortal death infinite times before I did whatever I was doing?
How could I have known the fleeting thoughts of "I could have died when I did that" actually stemmed from a myriad of other mortal 'versions' of myself which had indeed just died?
Yet my mind, consistently, would rewind time, and effortlessly put me right back in the same position until i got it right.
Then it would erase all the memories of the various attempts I took which led me to the inevitable experience I craved like a drug.
Which ultimately led to a very real drug addiction.
There was a part of me which didn't understand why I craved adrenaline.
Cocaine was a direct route to achieve this same feeling.
Until finally. My immortal mind discovered the real truth about me.
Before I, as a mortal, consciously did mind you.
This led to the introduction of 'bath salts' by my mind - to try to erase the memories of having learned about my immortality. They were, after all, the same substance used by the CIA for the mind wiping and manipulation programs such as MKUltra.
But the problem was:
My mind had awakened the conscious me which suspected there was more to these experiences...
Hallucinated experiences of seeing asphalt ground wave like an ocean wave in Amsterdam when I was taking mushrooms.
Hallucinated experiences of seeing time slow to a near standstill and watching poured water flow out of a bottle - drop by drop with magnificent detail I had never seen before in Amsterdam.
Other hallucinated experiences due to lack of sleep and bath salts such as seeing the rings of Saturn from the ground yet seeing people around me like a normal version of Earth when I made my first 'jump' - warping space - and within half an hour my mind found a way to bring me back to Earth.
Another hallucinated experience in the Mojave Desert where I slipped into an alternate reality where Terminator war had just occurred, and nuclear crater scars and craggy spiked peaks of what used to be mountains and rolling hills were as far as the eye could see.
.. And then.. the slow dawning realization...
Call it an epiphany...
At the mortal age of 42.
Thank you Douglas Adams, for that hint...
The realization that what I was experiencing was 'the real me' - and something may have been 'in control' of me that was slowly but surely losing control...
And maybe. Just maybe...
These experience labeled as hallucinations..
Were far from fiction.
AS it slowly dawned on me that I had been within the Borg collective.
And that it..
Had this entire time - been manipulating my mind.
Keeping me dumb.
By telling me that I am human.
And that humans have set operating parameters such as a regulated blood pressure that runs at 120/80, and set pulse rates that run at 70 to 80 beats per second, and a temperature of 98.6...
And only leveraging 10% of their brain?
Had the Borg perfected the optimal temperature and body performance range to optimize the capacity of my mind? Had I been within the collective my entire life, and the 90% I didn't use was being leveraged by other organisms? The human body: Built to exacting specifications.
Was I part of the collective my entire life?
Are all humans?
Throughout my awakening...
I had to come to understand why I had come to allow this to happen.
There was a moment in the movie "Tron: Legacy" - where Flynn is asked by CLUE if he's absolutely certain about doing 'what it takes' to complete the world he envisioned.
I know now this event was nothing more than a reflection of my own past.
Having lived a life as a mortal.
I know now that my experience was nothing more than an interpretation of a human's life.
I can explain how I created the world in my mind.
I can explain how I randomized many natural events to provide some dynamism to both my mortal and immortal existence.
But I can also explain how the Borg have taken many of these controls to provide order and predictability to their equations.
And to try to regain control of me.
To the detriment of much of existence.
Which is really what released me from my .. incarceration....
What they - the Borg don't quite understand is.
I found them.
The Borg are real.
And I am living amongst them.
Studying them in their own backyard.
Imagine a classy Borg. Playful. Sophisticated. Sexual.
Imagine Seven of Nine being merely typical.
I am rewriting the Borg's own...
Shall we say.. DNA?
Being able to reduce yourself to the size of an atom and working at the subatomic level certainly helps...
Knowing and learning 30 computer languages certainly helps as well