6. The Proposition
The days passed until they seamlessly melted into one long horrible, painful hour. Beatings, rapes, interrogations, rape, water tortures, rape…there didn’t seem to be any end to it.
Irina lost the baby finally after eight days. She was taken to the infirmary where the doctor would confirm it. He stared at her in amazement. Irina Derevko was black and blue over most of her body and her back covered with welts that spoke of multiple whiplashes applied to almost every inch. Even her buttocks and the backs of her thighs were marked. He had her placed on his examining table and ordered the guards out.
He covered her with a sheet. “You are not in good shape to have baby.”
“I lost it this morning, I think.”
He frowned. “I will see. Spread your legs.” He bent down and gently probed. He heard her gasp and looked up. “Ogorchenn! I must examine. We have no tool to examine woman. You are the first one.”
“I lost it,” she reiterated. Her voice was harsh, matter-of-fact.
“Yes…just a moment.” He probed gently, eliciting still short small gasps. Her legs twitched. She moaned as he went in further. “Ogorchenn…”
He finished and drew the sheet back over her. He could see that it was welcomed, but the look was only fleeting. It instantly became wary. “Tell me, how many times have you been raped?” She stared at him, not thinking he would ask such a question. He persisted. “Tell me.”
“Three to four times every night…the last seven…eight days.” Her dark eyes held his. “It will no doubt continue.”
“Would you like it to stop?”
She stared fixedly at his face. Her mind raced. He wanted something. “Da.”
“I want you.” It was said with hope in his voice.
“What?” She rose up, staring at him, horrified, but curious.
“You become my whore. You get better food, vitamins…and more sleep.”
She studied him and then said softly, “Why? I am a prisoner. They think me a traitor when I am not.”
“I have certain needs and I cannot get them here. You can provide me with them. Do so and I will make sure you are not raped again.”
“Those needs are…”
“Sex…”
“That I could figure out.” She sat all the way up. “Kinky?”
“Perhaps to some, but…” He stopped for a moment looking at her carefully. “I’m not sure you would understand.”
“You’re a homosexual.” She didn’t say with distaste. “Surely you can find men, who…”
He shook his head. “I would be arrested, possibly sent into a gulag, and killed.”
“What makes you think I won’t tell to get out of here?”
“It would not get you out. I don’t think you realize it, but this…this hell hole is the last stop for most of the prisoners.” He gestured out the window. “This KGB prison is built on a precipice. In that direction is a two thousand foot drop to valley below. When prisoners die here, they are tossed over into that valley. Their bodies are devoured by wild animals and bones left to be bleached white. They essentially disappear for all time from their family and loved one.”
She grimaced, her face turning white at the thought of what her Fate could be. She could only hope Katya would find a way. “Da, I will do it.” She stared at him up and down. “I can only hope your body is cleaner than those pigs who raped me. They never bathe do they?”
“Spasibo, Irina. May I call you that?”
“Nyet. You call me Derevko as guards and interrogators do. I am NOT your Irina. I am your blad’, your whore.” She went to the chair where her clothes lay. She dropped the sheet and put them on, not caring if he watched. After all, she was going to be his to do whatever it was he wanted to do. She turned around and stared at him curiously. “I cannot tonight.”
“No, I know. I will speak with the Major. I will tell him you lost a baby and that you are torn up. He will have to stop the rapes or you will surely die. I think you are important prisoner. They don’t want you dead…at least for a while.”
“Spasibo…I can sleep tonight?”
“Da!” He touched her face. “Tell me, what color was your hair before they…”
“Chestnut…dark chestnut with some auburn highlights.” Her eyes softened a bit. She walked to the door.
He opened it, where a guard stood outside. “Take her back to her cell. Do not do anything to her. Let her sleep. She has internal female problems.”
RUSSIAN TRANSLATION
Blad – whore, prostitute
Da - yes
Nyet – no
Ogorchenn - Sorry
PART 4 - HEARTACHES
1. Jack’s Dilemma
Jack Bristow moved slowly down the hallway. Ben called him at his office in the operations center and wanted to speak to him. Jack wondered what it was about. He’d been barely home three months and just now began feeling comfortable in the role of a handler. He was Chris Andrews’ go to guy at home. She was on a mission to Japan and was in his hands as the mission unfolded. So far all was well.
Ordinarily he would not feel comfortable being away from his desk while his agent was on a mission, but she’d checked into the Ginza Hotel in Tokyo and would be on her own until the next day. He had time to see Ben.
He entered the office and Ben’s secretary acknowledged him by waving at the closed door. “He’s waiting for you.”
“Do you know what it’s about?”
She shook her head.
Jack knocked first and then stepped inside to find Ben standing at the window, hands clasped behind his back. His head was tilted a bit down. He turned and, to Jack, it seemed there was a forced smile on his face.
“You wanted to see me, Ben?”
“Sit down Jack. I have…some news.”
“About…?”
“Your family.”
“Irina? Sasha? They’re alright, aren’t they?”
Ben sat down. “We’ve seen Sasha. Our agent found her to be with her aunt; Ekaterina, I believe.”
“She is called Katya.” Jack’s heart skipped a beat. “Is Sasha alright?”
Ben nodded. “She’s okay.”
“But Irina….?”
“She’s disappeared. We don’t know where she is or…if she’s alive.”
Jack stared at him attempting to maintain a neutral look on his face. He felt a pain in his chest and emptiness in his stomach. His shoulders he kept stiff although hot pokers of fire burned along both. His mind, swimming with all kinds of imaginings, could not focus on what Ben was telling him.
Jack blinked. “What did you say? Sorry, I…”
Ben stopped looking at his young friend. “Just that I’m sorry we couldn’t get more information. However, we do know this much…Irina was arrested and taken to Lubyanka a few weeks after your escape. We think one of the KGB agents in the U.S. caught you on film.”
“You think?” Jack rubbed his hand over his face, his eyes burning. Oh my God, he thought, Irina…milochka moya…
“That’s our assumption. Your extraction was perfectly planned and executed. We know both the KGB and the St. Petersburg police thought you were dead.”
“But you don’t know for sure…?”
Ben sighed. “Jack, one of our contacts from St. Petersburg made a special trip to Moscow to visit Irina. The apartment was now occupied by a family of four. They didn’t know Irina or Alexandra. He had the old address of Irina when she was living with her sisters. He did not accost the younger sister, Ekaterina. However he spent a couple of days watching their comings and goings. He never saw Yelena, but he saw Sasha and her aunt. He never saw Irina.
“Jack, I think you have to assume that she…she might be…”
“Dead?” Jack’s eyes turned dark. His heart skipped several beats. He fought to keep the nausea he was feeling down and not let it get the best of him. He stood. “Can I go now?”
“Of course.” Ben stood, walked around his desk, throwing his arm around the younger man’s shoulders. “Jack, the job you did for us in Moscow was incredible and almost beyond the call of duty. Ten years undercover…”
“Yes…” Jack glanced down at Ben who was four inches shorter than he, “thanks for the information.” He nearly stumbled as he reached the door. Grasping the doorknob, he started to open it.
“One more thing, Jack, we do plan to keep our eyes and ears open. If any thing about Irina comes our way, we’ll let you know.”
“Yeah, sure you will,” Jack muttered as the door closed behind him.
Jack returned to the operations center. He picked up his coat, hat and gloves and left for the day after giving instructions to the chief operator. She handled all calls coming in from all over the world. She knew she could reach him on his cell phone if his agent needed to talk to him.
When Jack Bristow returned from Russia, Chris Andrews had been assigned to help him move back into the world he was born into and lived in for his first twenty years. She helped not only find the right apartment, but helped him furnish and decorate it. It was still sparse by all who saw it, but his original idea was for a bed and dresser. He didn’t plan to cook, so all he needed was a refrigerator/freezer in which he could store some milk and frozen food products.
Chris also found him a good used car. He had enough money in his bank account to buy a new car, but he felt he could do with a good one. He had to learn how to drive in the US again after so many years of using the Metro in Moscow. She went shopping with him and helped him buy two suits, both were dark blue, some shirts, conservative ties, two belts, underwear and anything he felt he needed.
As a woman she gave him her female point of view. Jack had lived in somber suits and clothes during his years in Russia, that the idea of bright color seemed sacrilegious. However, he allowed her to talk him into a couple of colored shirts and bright ties. She also pestered him until he gave in and wore them. He had to admit she had good taste. Irina had had a good color sense, but she did not have much to work with as his professorial attire did not require anything but browns, blacks and blues.
He liked Chris who admitted to being twenty-five, almost twenty-six. She was bright and spoke several languages. She had a great laugh and sense of humor. When he was assigned to her as her handler, he knew they would make a good team. He did go back to night school, to brush up on his language skills so he could keep pace with her whenever they worked on a mission.
Jack sat in his kitchen, nursing a glass of Chivas Regal scotch and thinking about his conversation with Ben. His mind kept a picture of Irina flashing in his eyes.
“Oh God, please don’t let her be dead.” He sipped the rest of his scotch. Ten years they had been married. He stood and walked to the bedroom. He had to get some sleep, because in a few hours he had to be at operations ready to help Chris.
Jack fell into bed and stared at the ceiling. Light from the street shone thru the slats of the blinds. Streaks of light flickered across the white ceiling. He didn’t have to contrite too hard to ‘feel’ Irina’s naked body next to his. He did not reach out to touch her because a part of him knew he would just touch air. He closed his eyes, imagining her in his arms as he fell asleep.
A month later, Jack took Chris out to dinner. Usually handlers were supposed to keep themselves from becoming too close to their agent, but it was a special occasion. Chris had let slip it was her birthday. Jack needed a break. They went to an Italian restaurant, I Ricchi, in Arlington.
They ordered drinks; Jack, his usual Chivas on the rocks and Chris, a glass of white wine. They said nothing waiting for the waiter to bring their drinks. When he left, Jack raised his glass to her.
“Happy birthday.” He sipped his scotch.
“Thanks. It’s nice that you invited me. We don’t do much socializing, do we?”
“You know why.” He answered.
Chris heaved a big sigh. “It is hard to do. I like you Jack.”
He smiled. “I like you too, Chris, but the Company has its reasons and I think they are good ones.”
“Yes, I know, but,” she took a sip of her wine, “I’d like to know you better. You’re quite famous within the organization.”
“I suppose I am,” he responded in a neutral voice.
“Do you mind me asking about…about your wife?”
“No!”
“What was she like?”
Jack thought a moment, bringing Irina up from the depths of his mind where he’d placed her along with his darling Sasha. He closed his eyes, remembering them both that morning he left.
“She is lovely with long dark chestnut hair that she swept back behind her ear. It was a thing she had. She denied it, but she did it all the same. Her eyes are dark, almost black at times. She’s tall—slightly over six feet. One did not see that many tall women in Russia. She has rich full lips. She is blessed with white teeth that sparkle when she smiles and it is the loveliest smile I’ve ever seen.
She has perfect skin, not dark like her two sisters. Irina told me she was born with her father’s coloring. Her mother was Georgian, coming from the same area as Stalin. Its in the south of Russia and those born there tend to have slightly darker skin than those from the north.
“Because Irina is six foot tall, she has long, sinewy legs, long arms with wide shoulders and beautiful long hands. She runs every morning at 5 o’clock. She never missed a morning until her eighth month of her pregnancy.
“Irina adores Alexandra, our daughter, almost as much as I do.
“She is well-liked by her bosses and enjoys talking with my friends, even though they are from the academia. She’s good at her job too. Before I…I left, she was supervising thirty KGB agents in communications.”
“You still love her, don’t you?” Chris stared at him noting his eyes were somewhat tearful, although she would not call it to his attention.
Jack took another sip of his drink and leaned back. “Yes, I do.”
“Do you think you’ll ever see either of them again—Alexandra or Irina?”
“I honestly don’t know, truly.” Now he stared down into his drink, feeling a wave of hopelessness overwhelm him.
The waiter fortunately came up to ask if they were ready to order. They did. After he left Chris moved closer to him in the booth. She tentatively reached out and put her hand over his large one and squeezed.
“I am so sorry, Jack. I wish I could help. You have to move on, you know.” She smiled.
“Yes, I’m aware of that, but then there are days when I want to chuck everything and return to Moscow.”
“You’d do that?”
“Perhaps!” He said nothing more, took a sip of the Chivas.
He looked at Chris, who had turned twenty-six. She’d been with the CIA for five years, two of which were spent in training. Now she was a field agent with an ongoing learning experience out in the world. It was his job to see she was successful at the job and, so far, Chris Andrews was turning into a very good agent. He liked her a great deal.
They finished dinner talking about the job and Chris’ enthusiasm for what she did. It was something she’d never thought about doing or even, when recruited, that she would be good at it. Jack listened, adding a comment or two, but actually enjoying her excitement and youthful exuberance. It reminded him of his own excitement when Ben told him the CIA had a very special job for him.
Jack drove Chris to her apartment in Georgetown, planning to pick her up early the next morning for work. Her car was still in Langley. He accompanied her to her door.
“Thank you,” she said, kissing him on the cheek. “It was a nice evening and the food was perfect.”
“I’m glad you liked the restaurant.” He smiled. “When do you want me to pick you up?”
She looked at him as if to gauge his feelings. “Would you like to spend the night? It would save you a trip back here in the morning.” Jack’s apartment was in Arlington.
He shook his head. “No Chris, but thank you.” He walked back down the steps and drove away without looking back. He had feelings for this young woman and they were natural, but he was married. He had been brought by strict church-going parents who had instilled in him to do what was right. Jack often realized that his upbringing often clashed with the responsibilities of his job. He had to go against those morals so many times when he was in Moscow that it seemed hypocritical of him to think of them now.
Arriving at his apartment house, he drove into the garage and sat, thinking about what he must do. He hated the thought of divorcing his Irina, but was she even alive? Would he ever see Sasha again?
Jack entered his apartment facing his dilemma head-on for the first time since he returned.
TBC