its meredith he wants. I think he feels that he should see if he can work things out with adison. he definatetly doesn't hate her, but he does have a stronger connection with meredith
i think he loved addison and i think he wants to love addison. i think there is always a lingering of love, even if it just comes from memories. he remembers a time when he loved addison the way he loves meredith, and he wants to be back there because she is his wife and he thinks it's the right thing to do.
