Bondgal2007
Cadet
My best friend tried to kill herself a few months back. I was so mad at her she never told me till today, she wrote this poem while sitting in her mama's car. 
Bless Jesus cause she didn't and felt that life would get better for her. She asked me to put this on the site.
Ending Existence
Hello to the Heavens,
Goodbye to the Earth,
I know what death is worth.
Cause when one dies,
You will find,
That life doesn't come from the mind.
Breathing hard, I want to do this.
But inside I know I can get through this.
I have to hurry; my parents are coming home.
Cause I can only,
Choose this all alone.
Someone tell me.
Why I should do this?
Or someone tell me,
Why I shouldn't?
Deciding right now.
It's too hard for me.
Cause maybe, it is not meant to be.
It's getting cold.
It's getting dark.
Why can't I decide?
Then I started to realize.
Why I didn't want to die.
I pictured my funeral two days from now,
With my mother right next to me,
Tears falling from her eyes.
She cries "Why oh, why me?"
More than anything in the world,
I wanted to be cradled in her arms.
But now as I picture this vivid scene,
I just couldn't do this, to be free.
But wait a second,
What about my life,
And how exhausting it is to me?
But with just one hour in this garage,
I could be free!
No more homework,
No more dance,
No more crying in my hands,
No more friends putting me down,
No more of those worldly tragic sounds,
No more lectures from my parents,
No more lack of dying sleep,
No more of my self-conscious ways,
No more of my life in God I keep.
So for this decision, whom would I ask?
But the only one who's here with me,
Well, that of course,
Is Jesus Christ,
Who died for you and me
And then it hit me,
Why I wanted to die,
And how selfish,
I had been to He.
For the only reason,
I want to die,
Is for me, me, me, me, me!
That's not right,
To my friends and family,
That's not right to myself.
That's not right to all the people I love.
That's not right to God himself,
So I get up, and sit up,
And turn off the car,
That got me really far.
Now all that I have to do,
Is gain confidence in me and you.
With a little bit of courage,
And a little bit of love,
I know these years will pass.
Cause waiting on the other side is what they call "life".
Bless Jesus cause she didn't and felt that life would get better for her. She asked me to put this on the site. Ending Existence
Hello to the Heavens,
Goodbye to the Earth,
I know what death is worth.
Cause when one dies,
You will find,
That life doesn't come from the mind.
Breathing hard, I want to do this.
But inside I know I can get through this.
I have to hurry; my parents are coming home.
Cause I can only,
Choose this all alone.
Someone tell me.
Why I should do this?
Or someone tell me,
Why I shouldn't?
Deciding right now.
It's too hard for me.
Cause maybe, it is not meant to be.
It's getting cold.
It's getting dark.
Why can't I decide?
Then I started to realize.
Why I didn't want to die.
I pictured my funeral two days from now,
With my mother right next to me,
Tears falling from her eyes.
She cries "Why oh, why me?"
More than anything in the world,
I wanted to be cradled in her arms.
But now as I picture this vivid scene,
I just couldn't do this, to be free.
But wait a second,
What about my life,
And how exhausting it is to me?
But with just one hour in this garage,
I could be free!
No more homework,
No more dance,
No more crying in my hands,
No more friends putting me down,
No more of those worldly tragic sounds,
No more lectures from my parents,
No more lack of dying sleep,
No more of my self-conscious ways,
No more of my life in God I keep.
So for this decision, whom would I ask?
But the only one who's here with me,
Well, that of course,
Is Jesus Christ,
Who died for you and me
And then it hit me,
Why I wanted to die,
And how selfish,
I had been to He.
For the only reason,
I want to die,
Is for me, me, me, me, me!
That's not right,
To my friends and family,
That's not right to myself.
That's not right to all the people I love.
That's not right to God himself,
So I get up, and sit up,
And turn off the car,
That got me really far.
Now all that I have to do,
Is gain confidence in me and you.
With a little bit of courage,
And a little bit of love,
I know these years will pass.
Cause waiting on the other side is what they call "life".
