syd<3vaughn
Cadet
Okay, here's the deal. About two weeks ago the girl that I thought was my best-friend totally went off on me. She told me she wouldn't mind if I killed myself (infact she reccomended it), and that she'd never liked me... a ton of awful things. I had a ton of other friends, and I had started to make new ones this year, but it seems like everyone has a BEST friend other than me, so they'll only call me if their other plans fall through, or their best friend's grounded etc. They're also all good at something, so they're always busy with sports or dance or something. I'm not. Then last night I was going to have three girls over to go to the mall and sleep over. Girl #1 couldn't because she had to babysit. Girl #2 said she could, but then never showed up, and didn't return my innumerable messages. Girl #3, who I think really would've loved to come if she was allowed to, was grounded. See my life's sucking right now. I was going to have a few people over for an "alias party" tomorrow... and now only one person's coming and I really think it's out of pitty for me. My dad's been gone in China all week for business, but I don't think that matters because he likes my sister better anyway. My mom's always at my sisters sports... but I'm not the best at any sport I do. I used to think of myself as a runner, but I never win anything. I can't even qualify for the larger meets. My sister holds the school reccord for the hurdles, and my other sister's just an all around athlete. Soccer, track, tennis, and she's and insaine musician. On top of it all my sisters even like each other better than they like me. My life's awful, and the only thing I have is Alias... isn't that pathetic? It's driving me crazy. I don't know why my life's falling apart. I'm fairly tall, and muscular. I'm not the least bit fat, and I dress fine (AE, Abercrombie, Polo etc.) The one thing I can think of is that I'm depressed. I used to think of myself as a friendly person but now the only thing I have left in my life is a T.V. show, at least it's a good one. Right? Respond... either if you're feeling the same way or have before!