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Procrastinating Updater
I kinda did S/V Sarkney, but more Sarkney... please R&R! This takes place a year after Sydney went missing... And the story's name and song is by Venessa Carlton's 'Paradise'... on her 'Be Not Nobody' CD... YOU SHOULD GET IT! GREAT CD! 
Anyway... please R&R!!
~Paradise~
Once upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
everytime she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been
Why did I have to drive there? Why did I
have to arrive in time just to see them kissing?
Vaughn and a blonde. Vaughn in love. Not with me.
Might as well be with Julian now...
Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
when covers tucked in tight
funny when the bottom drops
how she forgets to fight... to fight
It didn't hurt me. Seeing him happy.
It didn't hurt me. Seeing him kiss someone.
What hurt was that he kissed her. The top
covenant agent. The woman that tried to
kill me. The woman that is planning to kill him.
I could've got out of the car and fought her and won.
But I also could've crushed Vaughn. Which is not in my heart.
So I just drove away.
And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
I live on a secret island now. With Julian Sark.
My... whatever. Not boyfriend, because Vaughn does and will always
hold that title. Not husband. That title belongs to Vaughn as well.
If only one last day here in "paradise", I will make it bad. Make it
forgettable.
As darkness quickly steals the light
that shined within her eyes
she slowly swallows all her fear
and soothes her mind with lies
I kissed Julian today. And it was not against my will. I give up.
We made love. Julian and I. Not Vaughn and I. I give up on Vaughn.
Even if I live on this island forever, I will live "happily" with Julian.
I can lie. It's easy. And sometimes the better way. Especially in this case.
It makes me feel somewhat whole again. Lying with Julian on our little island.
I love Julian Sark. Haha, lying is fun.
Well all she wants and all she needs
are reasons to survive
a day in which the sun will take
her artificial light... her light
I want Vaughn. I need him. There are my reasons not to kill myself.
Simple. That's what I want in life. Simplicity. Living on this island is just
that. Pure simplicity. Pure lies.
And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
it's one more day in paradise
one last chance to feel alright... alright
Make it last. That's what I'm telling myself. Only one more day, Julian tells me. Before
we go back to the real world. Before I go back to the life that I once knew so well with Vaughn.
Before I forget all this ever happened. I can only feel alright today, because I know what's happening to Vaughn. Tommarrow night, I won't know. It'll all just be a big mystery to me. The last thing I'll remember is the fight with Allison. I could die. But I also have an equal chance of not dying. I'm going for it.
Don't pretend to hold it in just let it out
don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
don't you try to hold it in just let it out and
don't you try to hold it in you hold it in
I cried one last time. The time for my memory-surgery is nearing. Noon, today. It's already eight o'clock in the morning. I drank coffee with Julian as we sat on the beach watching the waves. The only words he uttered to me the entire time we've been here, about a year, was what he said today, 'Good Luck.'
Once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
everytime she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been
We're leaving the island now. I gave Julian the longest, lingering kiss I ever gave anyone. Even Vaughn. 'Thank you', I said to him. For everything. Then I closed my eyes and saw the image of Lauren and Vaughn kissing. I opened them again and gave Julian another kiss. Then I left.
Anyway... please R&R!! ~Paradise~
Once upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
everytime she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been
Why did I have to drive there? Why did I
have to arrive in time just to see them kissing?
Vaughn and a blonde. Vaughn in love. Not with me.
Might as well be with Julian now...
Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
when covers tucked in tight
funny when the bottom drops
how she forgets to fight... to fight
It didn't hurt me. Seeing him happy.
It didn't hurt me. Seeing him kiss someone.
What hurt was that he kissed her. The top
covenant agent. The woman that tried to
kill me. The woman that is planning to kill him.
I could've got out of the car and fought her and won.
But I also could've crushed Vaughn. Which is not in my heart.
So I just drove away.
And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
I live on a secret island now. With Julian Sark.
My... whatever. Not boyfriend, because Vaughn does and will always
hold that title. Not husband. That title belongs to Vaughn as well.
If only one last day here in "paradise", I will make it bad. Make it
forgettable.
As darkness quickly steals the light
that shined within her eyes
she slowly swallows all her fear
and soothes her mind with lies
I kissed Julian today. And it was not against my will. I give up.
We made love. Julian and I. Not Vaughn and I. I give up on Vaughn.
Even if I live on this island forever, I will live "happily" with Julian.
I can lie. It's easy. And sometimes the better way. Especially in this case.
It makes me feel somewhat whole again. Lying with Julian on our little island.
I love Julian Sark. Haha, lying is fun.
Well all she wants and all she needs
are reasons to survive
a day in which the sun will take
her artificial light... her light
I want Vaughn. I need him. There are my reasons not to kill myself.
Simple. That's what I want in life. Simplicity. Living on this island is just
that. Pure simplicity. Pure lies.
And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
it's one more day in paradise
one last chance to feel alright... alright
Make it last. That's what I'm telling myself. Only one more day, Julian tells me. Before
we go back to the real world. Before I go back to the life that I once knew so well with Vaughn.
Before I forget all this ever happened. I can only feel alright today, because I know what's happening to Vaughn. Tommarrow night, I won't know. It'll all just be a big mystery to me. The last thing I'll remember is the fight with Allison. I could die. But I also have an equal chance of not dying. I'm going for it.
Don't pretend to hold it in just let it out
don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
don't you try to hold it in just let it out and
don't you try to hold it in you hold it in
I cried one last time. The time for my memory-surgery is nearing. Noon, today. It's already eight o'clock in the morning. I drank coffee with Julian as we sat on the beach watching the waves. The only words he uttered to me the entire time we've been here, about a year, was what he said today, 'Good Luck.'
Once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
everytime she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been
We're leaving the island now. I gave Julian the longest, lingering kiss I ever gave anyone. Even Vaughn. 'Thank you', I said to him. For everything. Then I closed my eyes and saw the image of Lauren and Vaughn kissing. I opened them again and gave Julian another kiss. Then I left.
