OK, it's here, i don't know how awaited it was, but its here nonetheless....ENJOY
Chapter Three--Part two
Sydney walked behind the couple numbly, seeming calm and collected on the outside, but screaming on the inside. She tried to make herself feel at least somewhat happy for Vaughn; happy that he had moved on with his life and found someone to settle down with. It was a fierce battle within her, her brain was doing the talking, but her heart was doing the feeling. Both were painful, and her contrasting feelings were ripping her in two, the feelings she wanted and the feelings she felt.
“So Rita – sorry – Sydney, where should we drop you off? I’m sure you want to see all of your friends,” Alice said, yanking Sydney out of her reverie.
Friend—singular, Sydney thought bitterly to herself.
That is if he hasn’t forgotten about me too, along with everyone else.
“Yeah, that—,” Sydney began when Vaughn cut her off.
“Uhh… Alice, I actually wasn’t expecting you to come and pick us up, so my car is here already. Why don’t you go home and I’ll drop Syd off wherever she wants to go.” He looked at Sydney, but was speaking to Alice, “we have some things we need to catch up on.”
Alice seemed dismayed at being put off, but she plastered a smile onto her face, told Vaughn she would see him at home and kissed Sydney goodbye. Sydney stared at her retreating back. She had only met Alice a couple of times, but she had noticed a drastic change in her personality and manor. Before, Sydney had found her very nice, boring maybe, but nice nonetheless. Now, she found the very sound of her voice unbearable. She hoped she wouldn’t be invited to their house too often for cookouts, two seconds with that woman was enough to send her over the edge. She hushed the voice in her heart telling her that that wasn’t the only reason she didn’t want to go to their house for dinner.
They made their way to Vaughn’s car in silence, both deep in thought. When they got in the car, Vaughn didn’t start it. Instead he turned his piercing, green gaze on Sydney, which she returned with an icy glare that sent shivers down his spine.
“Syd, I wish you would tell me what you were feeling,” he pleaded desperately.
“I wish I could tell myself what I am feeling.” Her emotional barriers were up and fully functional. “This is all happening to fast,” she said, exhausted, leaning her head against the window. “I need some time to think it all through.”
Vaughn looked at her sympathetically, “I-I’m sorry about the whole Alice thing – hadn’t expected her to be at the airport, otherwise--”
“Vaughn—you don’t need to explain, I wouldn’t expect everyone to hang around for me.” She looked at him, raising her head from the window, “It’s okay, I’ll eventually catch up and move on—just like everyone else.”
Vaughn knew she was right, but the full meaning of her words still hit him hard. He knew now how much he had hurt her, but he didn’t want her to move on, he wanted her to know that he hadn’t been able to move on, even after two years, he had only been able to hide.
But he didn’t say all those things and he probably should have, but he was afraid of his feelings. Instead, he turned on the car and headed toward Sydney’s apartment.
We’re right back to square one, he thought ironically.
I need to know if you were real
Cuz I’ve been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes I’ll see im always in the dark, you got me now.
I can’t remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along, slowly everything began to change,
I got ya now
That’s enough, just talking about it
Outta my head, outta my head, no ain’t i
That’s enough just dreamin about it
I need to know if you were real
I need to think that I’ve been fooled again
And as the vision fades I’ll say, I was blinded by your eyes,
I felt them burn
Give You Back
Vertical Horizon
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Ok—I know it’s short, but it’s Friday and I just had my last day of classes, so there is NO WAY I am studying today, I’ll leave that for tomorrow and Sunday…
I know it’s moving kind of slowly, but I can’t make myself rush this stuff, especially since we have a whole summer to find out what REALLY happens….
FEEDBACK PLZZ!! If I get enough, I might even write another section tonight >>hint hint<<