Tiiulicious
Cadet
This is my new fic with quite an unusual pairing. I always wanted to write about these two together and here it is. This started life as a one parter, but I liked writing it so much that it will have a few chapters instead of just one. I hope you like it.
My Secret Valentine
“We are going to have to tell Sydney at some point. I know you don’t want to hurt her, but I’m not going to stay away from you. I love you and we are not doing anything wrong, we just fell in love,” Nadia Santos said to the man laying beside her, trying desperately to get through to him on the topic of telling someone they both loved the truth.
“I love you too, but too many people will get hurt if we go open with our relationship. Sydney, Irina, your father, Weiss…the list could go on forever.” Jack Bristow signed heavily and didn’t feel he could look at her right now. If he would have, he would have seen the look of hurting in her dark eyes.
Their affair had started after a Parisian mission a couple of months ago. After they had successfully apprehended a high ranking member of an International terrorist organization, he had took her to dinner to celebrate and after many, many classes of wine, they had ended up sharing a bed for reasons other than merely sleeping.
After returning to the States, both had decided to brush their night of passion under the rug and pretend it never happened. But neither had thought it would be as difficult as it was. It had started up again with stolen glances and hidden thoughts and before long both knew it wasn’t going to stay a meaningless one night stand.
They succumbed five weeks after their first time and after that, their meetings had become more regular. She had fallen for him, the same way he had fallen for her. In an ideal world, they could have been a real couple, but not in the world they lived in. At least not right now.
Nadia found it quite absurd that she was in love with her half-sisters father and her mother’s former husband. Her life had suddenly gone from being quite simple, if you don’t count the fact that she was an international spy, to starring in her very own adaptation of soap opera Days of our lives.
“I want to be with you. I want to hold your hand and kiss you in public. I can’t take this lying and deceiving any more. If you won’t be with me in public, I won’t be with you in secret. It’s either a real relationship or nothing at all. Do you have any idea what it feels like watching Rachel flirting with you at the office without being able to step in and take my place at your side?” Nadia said again with some much determination that it caught Jack by surprise. She rose to a sitting position in the bed with a white sheet covering her bare chest and looked at him, really looked at him in a way that couldn’t be ignored.
“I want all those things as well. I don’t have any interest in Rachel, you are the only woman who captures my imagination and attention. But I can’t hurt my daughter in any way, she is my life and this would devastate her.” Jack said in a rational voice and took her hand into his.
“I won’t play secret couples with you any more. If you can’t commit to me, I will find someone else who will,” Nadia said and got out of his bed and started putting her clothes on.
“You have to give me some time. I can’t change over night into someone who you want me to be. I have been alone for a long time now and I’m not good at this dating thing. I believe my last date was when Jimmy Carter was still in office.” Jack said trying to liven up the serious mood of the room. He really didn’t want Nadia to go, but couldn’t give her what she wanted at this moment.
Nadia didn’t respond to him and finished dressing in silence. She didn’t look at him, knowing full well that if she did, she wouldn’t be able to keep her resolve.
“I’ll see you at the office tomorrow, I’ll go now. I want you to think what I said and tell me later can you commit to me the way I deserve. It’s either all or nothing with me,” Nadia said and walked to where he was sitting on the bed and kissed him deeply before exiting to the cold winter night with hot tears burning in her eyes.
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She tried her best to calm down before she would have to go home. She had moved out of Sydney’s apartment when she and Vaughn had started living together and found a surprising roommate in Lauren Reed, Vaughn’s former wife.
She had moved in a couple of months ago and actually had bonded with Lauren, who had been pardoned for her involvement with the covenant. Lauren was very good at reading Nadia’s thoughts and was the only one she had opened up about her feelings for Jack. She didn’t want to go home in tears and looking sad, because she would read her like an open book and didn’t feel like to be a patient on her analyzing couch.
But tonight was not her night, Lauren was sitting in armchair in the kitchen with a thick book in her lap and a cup of hot chocolate in her hands. Nadia tried sneaking slowly and quietly to her room without alerting her, but it failed miserably.
“Nads, what are you doing at home. I would have thought you’d be in Jack Bristow’s arms by now and the passion would be igniting.” Lauren said interrupting Nadia in mid-walk.
“Not to tonight, I didn’t feel very good. I’m going to bed, good night Lauren,” Nadia said with fake yawn and turned her back to the blonde who was now eyeing her suspiciously.
“I’m not buying it. Did you and Jack fight about something? I know you want to vent to someone and I’m here for you,” Lauren said in a soft voice and got up from the chair and moved to the sofa in the middle of the room and gestured to Nadia to sit down next to her.
She signed and sat next to the blonde-haired woman. She knew she had no way out of her inquisition and maybe telling someone was a good thing.
“I told Jack that I wanted him to date me in public or everything was over between us. I gave him a ultimatum, tell Sydney about us or lose me.” Nadia said and as soon as the words had left her mouth, she regretted to actually doing that to the man she loved. She didn’t need Lauren telling her that she had been an idiot.
“You did what? Why would you start giving ultimatums to a man who would die rather than hurt his daughter. You have to know that that Sydney has been his life for a long time now and if he had to choose between you two, Sydney would win every time.” Lauren said in a voice full of disapproval.
“I don’t know why I did it, I just want to be the first thing in his life. I know it was stupid, but…,” Nadia replied letting her voice disappear into silence.
“Tomorrow at work, you need to go to him and take it all back. Jack loves you, I’m sure of it, you just need to give in some space and time. I know from experience that haste makes waste. If you push any further, he will go exactly the other direction you want. Do you want to stand in a church and watch him marry Rachel in the future? We both know that Rachel has been eyeing the title of Mrs. Jack Bristow ever since his divorce from Irina became final and she will eventually get her way, if you let her.” Lauren said, trying to appeal to Nadia’s sense of completion and dislike of Rachel.
“The day when Rachel becomes Jack’s wife, hell will freeze over. That woman will get him over my cold, dead body. You’re right, I will give him some time and let things evolve in their own accord.” Nadia said and hugged Lauren excitedly.
“That’s right, go get your man back,” Lauren laughed and hugged the other girl back. Tomorrow she would have to do some damage control and make sure Rachel would not even get an opportunity to make a play for the man she loved.
To Be Continued…
My Secret Valentine
“We are going to have to tell Sydney at some point. I know you don’t want to hurt her, but I’m not going to stay away from you. I love you and we are not doing anything wrong, we just fell in love,” Nadia Santos said to the man laying beside her, trying desperately to get through to him on the topic of telling someone they both loved the truth.
“I love you too, but too many people will get hurt if we go open with our relationship. Sydney, Irina, your father, Weiss…the list could go on forever.” Jack Bristow signed heavily and didn’t feel he could look at her right now. If he would have, he would have seen the look of hurting in her dark eyes.
Their affair had started after a Parisian mission a couple of months ago. After they had successfully apprehended a high ranking member of an International terrorist organization, he had took her to dinner to celebrate and after many, many classes of wine, they had ended up sharing a bed for reasons other than merely sleeping.
After returning to the States, both had decided to brush their night of passion under the rug and pretend it never happened. But neither had thought it would be as difficult as it was. It had started up again with stolen glances and hidden thoughts and before long both knew it wasn’t going to stay a meaningless one night stand.
They succumbed five weeks after their first time and after that, their meetings had become more regular. She had fallen for him, the same way he had fallen for her. In an ideal world, they could have been a real couple, but not in the world they lived in. At least not right now.
Nadia found it quite absurd that she was in love with her half-sisters father and her mother’s former husband. Her life had suddenly gone from being quite simple, if you don’t count the fact that she was an international spy, to starring in her very own adaptation of soap opera Days of our lives.
“I want to be with you. I want to hold your hand and kiss you in public. I can’t take this lying and deceiving any more. If you won’t be with me in public, I won’t be with you in secret. It’s either a real relationship or nothing at all. Do you have any idea what it feels like watching Rachel flirting with you at the office without being able to step in and take my place at your side?” Nadia said again with some much determination that it caught Jack by surprise. She rose to a sitting position in the bed with a white sheet covering her bare chest and looked at him, really looked at him in a way that couldn’t be ignored.
“I want all those things as well. I don’t have any interest in Rachel, you are the only woman who captures my imagination and attention. But I can’t hurt my daughter in any way, she is my life and this would devastate her.” Jack said in a rational voice and took her hand into his.
“I won’t play secret couples with you any more. If you can’t commit to me, I will find someone else who will,” Nadia said and got out of his bed and started putting her clothes on.
“You have to give me some time. I can’t change over night into someone who you want me to be. I have been alone for a long time now and I’m not good at this dating thing. I believe my last date was when Jimmy Carter was still in office.” Jack said trying to liven up the serious mood of the room. He really didn’t want Nadia to go, but couldn’t give her what she wanted at this moment.
Nadia didn’t respond to him and finished dressing in silence. She didn’t look at him, knowing full well that if she did, she wouldn’t be able to keep her resolve.
“I’ll see you at the office tomorrow, I’ll go now. I want you to think what I said and tell me later can you commit to me the way I deserve. It’s either all or nothing with me,” Nadia said and walked to where he was sitting on the bed and kissed him deeply before exiting to the cold winter night with hot tears burning in her eyes.
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She tried her best to calm down before she would have to go home. She had moved out of Sydney’s apartment when she and Vaughn had started living together and found a surprising roommate in Lauren Reed, Vaughn’s former wife.
She had moved in a couple of months ago and actually had bonded with Lauren, who had been pardoned for her involvement with the covenant. Lauren was very good at reading Nadia’s thoughts and was the only one she had opened up about her feelings for Jack. She didn’t want to go home in tears and looking sad, because she would read her like an open book and didn’t feel like to be a patient on her analyzing couch.
But tonight was not her night, Lauren was sitting in armchair in the kitchen with a thick book in her lap and a cup of hot chocolate in her hands. Nadia tried sneaking slowly and quietly to her room without alerting her, but it failed miserably.
“Nads, what are you doing at home. I would have thought you’d be in Jack Bristow’s arms by now and the passion would be igniting.” Lauren said interrupting Nadia in mid-walk.
“Not to tonight, I didn’t feel very good. I’m going to bed, good night Lauren,” Nadia said with fake yawn and turned her back to the blonde who was now eyeing her suspiciously.
“I’m not buying it. Did you and Jack fight about something? I know you want to vent to someone and I’m here for you,” Lauren said in a soft voice and got up from the chair and moved to the sofa in the middle of the room and gestured to Nadia to sit down next to her.
She signed and sat next to the blonde-haired woman. She knew she had no way out of her inquisition and maybe telling someone was a good thing.
“I told Jack that I wanted him to date me in public or everything was over between us. I gave him a ultimatum, tell Sydney about us or lose me.” Nadia said and as soon as the words had left her mouth, she regretted to actually doing that to the man she loved. She didn’t need Lauren telling her that she had been an idiot.
“You did what? Why would you start giving ultimatums to a man who would die rather than hurt his daughter. You have to know that that Sydney has been his life for a long time now and if he had to choose between you two, Sydney would win every time.” Lauren said in a voice full of disapproval.
“I don’t know why I did it, I just want to be the first thing in his life. I know it was stupid, but…,” Nadia replied letting her voice disappear into silence.
“Tomorrow at work, you need to go to him and take it all back. Jack loves you, I’m sure of it, you just need to give in some space and time. I know from experience that haste makes waste. If you push any further, he will go exactly the other direction you want. Do you want to stand in a church and watch him marry Rachel in the future? We both know that Rachel has been eyeing the title of Mrs. Jack Bristow ever since his divorce from Irina became final and she will eventually get her way, if you let her.” Lauren said, trying to appeal to Nadia’s sense of completion and dislike of Rachel.
“The day when Rachel becomes Jack’s wife, hell will freeze over. That woman will get him over my cold, dead body. You’re right, I will give him some time and let things evolve in their own accord.” Nadia said and hugged Lauren excitedly.
“That’s right, go get your man back,” Lauren laughed and hugged the other girl back. Tomorrow she would have to do some damage control and make sure Rachel would not even get an opportunity to make a play for the man she loved.
To Be Continued…
