So this is my life

Chapter 16

Sydney found herself on a white sandy beach. She was barefooted and wearing a light flower patterned summer dress. The ocean ear was chilly but refreshing. The sand beneath her feet was still warm and the sun about to set. She couldn’t help but wish that Vaughn was there beside her. It was a beautiful moment and she wanted more than anything to share it with him. She felt the sudden desire to move closer to the water line but in her subconscious she knew something was truly out of place here. It was too good to be true and she felt endangered. That’s when the illusion faded and she realised she was standing on a cliff instead. The rocks beneath her feet were sharp and cutting into her legs. She felt a strong deep pain in her every mussel and the once calm sea was now raging. The sky was bleu without a cloud in sight but it felt dull grey and morbid. Not a single stream of sunlight managed to cut throw and as her heart begun to race faster she felt she couldn’t bear it all for much longer. Behind her was a forest with tall dark trees covered in thin fog. It was like a sight out of a horror movie and the bare thought of what might be lurking in the darkness scared her. She shivered feeling so alone and hopeless with no salvage in sight. And the only thing standing in between was a road that seemed to come from and go to nowhere. Her eyes filled with tears and she felt her strength slowly fading. She looked out to the ocean that had calmed by now and felt it calling out to her. She walked over to the edge and threw a dark red rose that seemed almost black out to the wide-open sea. She watched as the waves slowly rocked it back and forth and felt the urge to escape this place. A whisper echoed across the sky calling out for her name. It made her feel so cold and empty. Still hopeful she turned around only to feel the all-consuming darkness lurking behind her. She couldn’t even see the trees anymore but she knew they were there. Just had to be. Holding back tears she turned around feeling she had nowhere to go and no way to save herself from this. She spread her arms letting the wind gently caress her face. Swallowing the lump in her throat she made her choice. Not caring if this would be the end or salvation she took that one last step ready to fall and face her end unable to fight her suffocating fears anymore. She didn’t want to die but if this was the end then so be it. But instead of falling she felt Michaels arms grab on to her. He pulled her back not letting her kill herself this way and then he held her in his arms not saying a word. As a sign of gratitude she kissed him only to realise he had no understanding that she was really there. For a moment despair got the best of her as she cried on his shoulder unable to stop. Hating herself for being this weak she wiped away her tears and pulled together what’s left of her strength. She kissed him again this time pouring all her love and un shown feelings into that single moment thinking if this was another illusion then at least she got to see him again. Slowly she opened her eyes scared he hadn’t been there to save her. She saw something white only to realise she was lying in a hospital bed. On her left side there sat a man half asleep and though it had been a while she recognised it to be Michael. She concentrated on her hand and managed to move her fingers just a bit. But it had been enough to catch his attention. She saw the relief in his sleepy eyes as he called out for the doctor and only then she noticed the other figure in the room. She smiled weakly trying her hardest to stay awake.

“Mom,” Sydney whispered after the doctor had finally left.

“Darling I’m here for you,” Irina replied and kissed Sydney’s forehead.

“Michael you saved me,” she continued turning her head only to be greeted by his confused but relieved look.

“And mom you risked everything to be here with me,” Sydney spoke in a very tired tone.

“I promised I would always be there for you. Remember?” Irina replied smiling at her daughter.

“You told him, didn’t you? You brought him back to me,” Sydney mumbled.

“Don’t tire yourself so much,” Michael said caringly.

“Don’t let me close my eyes. I don’t want to go back to that place. Please don’t let me go back there. I couldn’t take it again. Please don’t. Just don’t,” Sydney begged them both feeling frightened as a cold chill ran down her spine.

“Sydney calm down. I am here for you. We both are,” Michael replied gently squeezing her hand trying to reassure her.

“Don’t leave me,” she whispered feeling herself weakening by every second.

“How touching,” Andrew spoke as he walked in to the room.

“What is he doing here?” Sydney asked with evident fear in her voice.

“I just wanted to see how you were doing. After all I do still care about you darling,” Andrew simply stated.

“It was him. The stairs and… Please don’t let him hurt me again. Please just stay away from me,” Sydney spoke feeling obviously scared while holding onto Vaughn’s hand and squeezing it tight afraid to let go.

“Just leave. Can’t you see you are frightening her,” Michael said hoping Andrew would get the hint.

“So for how long exactly have you been sleeping around with my wife?” Andrew asked looking at Michael before turning his eyes back to Sydney.

“Ex wife,” Michael corrected him. “And now get out of here.”

“Not before I’ve had a chance to speak with her. Alone,” he replied making it clear that he wasn’t intending on going anywhere before he gets what he wants.

“Don’t leave me here with him. He just wants to hurt me again,” Sydney cried out afraid to be in the same room with that man.

“See that is a no,” Michael said trying to release his hand from Sydney’s so he could escort Andrew out but she just wouldn’t let go. So Irina pushed a tiny button on her wristwatch. A moment later two strong men appeared in the room.

“Show him out and make sure he never shows his face here again,” Irina simply stated and watched with pleasure as Andrew was dragged out of the room.

“What were you saying about the stairs?” Irina asked after Sydney had calmed down a bit.

“I didn’t fall. He pushed me,” she simply replied and begun to cry.
 
Holy felgercarb he pushed her down the stairs!!! :angry: Irina why don't you just have your 2 "friends" do us all a favour and push him over the cliff... Great update, missed this story, can't wait for the next chapter... Things are beginning to make sense now!! (y)
 
Oh god Welli didnt expect that
wow so andrew PUSHED her down the stairs
thats awful
irinaaaaaaa....do us a favour go kill the ugly felgercarb
 
So everything she was talking about was her relieveing her memories
after Andrew pushed her down the stairs?
I have a feeling Irina is gonna take care of Andrew.
Thanks for the pm.
 
Chapter 17

Flashback

Sydney sat on her back porch. It was a chilly morning and her divorce was finally official. She held a picture of Vaughn in her hand thinking what he might be doing. She hoped he was happy because she cared about him deeply and still she wished he could be there with her. She smiled grateful to have known him though still angry with herself for not holding on to him. She wanted them to still be at least friends but knew that talking to him without being able to be with him would be even harder to handle. She felt she had missed out on her opportunity to be happy with him and now she had no choice but to stay away to save herself from even more pain. Besides she had good enough reasons to torment herself as it was. Then she sighed thinking how easily the illusion of safety can fade leaving you with nothing but doubt and a tangled up life with no clear way out. She found it unfair but there unfortunately there was nothing to be done about it.
Then she finally got up wanting to take a walk to clear her head but stopped hearing a knock on the door. She curiously turned her head in the direction of the house thinking who it might be. She hesitated not really feeling social but decided to see who it was anyway. To her unfortunate surprise she stood face to face with her ex husband upon opening front door.

“What do you want?” Sydney asked standing in the doorway.

“Aren’t you going to invite me in?” Andrew replied and without waiting for an answer entered.

“What do you want?” Sydney repeated her question.

“Nice place you’ve got here. Must have cost you a fortune,” he continued ignoring her question.

“What are you doing here?” Sydney questioned feeling annoyed and wishing she had pretended to be away.

“I just wanted to see how you are doing,” Andrew replied moving closer to her.

“When I said I never wanted to have anything to do with you I meant it,” Sydney said firmly moving away from him.

“Harsh. But I’ll forgive you. Just come back to me,” he replied coolly.

“Never. And now be so kind and show yourself out,” Sydney simply stated as she turned her back on him and begun walking upstairs.

“Fine,” he replied and begun to leave but changed his mind after noticing a picture of Vaughn on her end table which Sydney had left there on her way to open the door. He turned around and followed her up the stairs determent to get an explanation.

“I didn’t want to believe it but you really were cheating on me, weren’t you?” he asked shoving the picture under her nose.

“Leave me alone. We are not married anymore and I’m not supposed to tell you anything,” she replied trying to get past him.

“Is that so,” he yelled and shoved her. That’s when Sydney lost her balance and since he did nothing to help her she simply fell down the stairs and lost her consciousness.

***

Both Irina and Michael were shocked to hear her revelation. Andrew probably hadn’t intended to hurt her but it was no excuse for what he had done. They realised that it may be considered as an unfortunate accident so informing the police might end up being a big waste of time. And since there were no witnesses and her divorce had become official just recently she could have been considered a liar. After all they could never prove he shoved her and it would have ended up being her word against his. So yes it was one mess they didn’t want to drag her into no matter how much they wanted to see her ex pay for all the pain he had caused her. After all the last thing they ever wanted was someone accusing her of wanting to commit suicide as a result of depression. Since truthfully she was an easy target. Her husband had been cheating on her and then followed the long and painful divorce. It could have always been said that she finally broke down after trying to be strong for so long and holding it all in. She simply had a hard time coping so she decided to throw herself down the stairs as a random act of madness and a cry for help. And now in her state of denial she simply decided to blame the ex.

“Don’t worry darling. He’ll never hurt you again. I promise,” Irina said in a serious tone and turned around to leave the room.

“Mom please don’t leave me,” Sydney cried out to her.

“I’ll be back soon. And Michael is here with you. He is not going anywhere,” Irina replied trying to reassure her daughter. Making sure that Sydney had calmed down first she left.

“Vaughn I know I don’t have the right to ask you this but can I go to Paris with you?” she asked sounding hopeful after a long moment of silence.

“As on a vacation?” he replied with a question.

“No. I need to get away from here and I was hoping I could stay with you for the time being,” she explained herself.

“If you are sure it’s what you really want then of course I don’t mind the company,” he replied with a warm smile.

“Thank you,” she said feeling relived and grateful.

“Why do I feel there is something you are not telling me?” he asked feeling he had to.

“Maybe because you are right,” she suggested.

“You know you can trust me,” he replied wanting to know what she was hiding form him.

“What if I don’t trust myself?” she questioned.

“Sydney… Please. Talk to me,” he said looking at her caringly.

“I’ve missed you. I care about you. I wish there could be an us again and I know I have no right to expect that you are still interested in me after all the mistakes I’ve made. I never chose us over anything but I don’t regret my life. I’ve experienced so many wonderful things and I understand if you think I’m saying this just because I’m scared of being alone again but… Truthfully… What I feel when I’m around you always seems to be too good to be true and I’m not used to being that happy,” Sydney blurted out and begun to cry.

Vaughn just smiled at her last comment thinking how adorably childish it had just sounded.

“Please don’t make fun of me,” Sydney pleaded and turned her head away from him.

“Well then you’ll just have to get used to it,” he said and took her hand in his.

“What?” she asked confused.

“I’m willing to try if you are,” he simply replied and kissed her lips indicating he still loved her.
 
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